This is the 2nd time in 2 weeks that the boys and i have to say goodbye to some very close friends. This time it's Josiah's best friend and his family. This family came into our lives just a few years ago. It was just as our lives were changing, they were willing to put in the time and energy to earn the trust of my boys.
We quickly set up a regular routine having evening play dates every Friday that included creativity and pizza. And on those Saturdays when i'd wake to a quiet house Sahana was always sure to invite me along for morning errands. We'd wonder Target for hours and come home with things that we never knew we needed. We'd buy in bulk and hope our boys would eat it all.
It's hard for some people to understand but i created this safe place for my boys and i. We could just be ourselves. And this month we have lost 2 of those places. Someone recently said to me that this opens a spot for new to come in. I want new but i'm terrified. Letting someone new in is scary because that means letting them see me at my weakest and knowing my vulnerabilities.
My boys are incredible but they've been through a lot and just like their mother they have some trust issues and never really knows what someones true intentions are. We put up walls and even pull back in moments of fear. I have to keep reminding myself that God is just preparing us for great things. There is a plan and the best is yet to come. These families have come into our lives leaving a lasting impression on our hearts.
Next week we'll spend the week with my sister and her family in Michigan, another safe place. The distraction will be welcomed and full of family fun.
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